Perhaps if you have read some of my other post you will have resonated with my increasing unease with the socio political situation in South Africa.

http://www.2ndmiracle.co.za/web/blog/where-are-we-heading-.html

http://www.2ndmiracle.co.za/web/blog/south-africa.html

Last week I had a stange encounter with a policeman. Clearly we were both very wound up although I realised straight away that it would be best if I did everything I could to unwind the situation. It felt related to what I was feeling about South Africa and at last I remembered the vital step (that I always forget) in being able to do something about it. I asked 'What Can I Do?'

The next morning I had the idea to do the following square: be victimised by Institutionalised Power vs Rebel Against Institutionalised Power. I think you would probably be able to track how to do a square just by continueing to read but here is a link with indepth info.

http://www.2ndmiracle.co.za/web/innerwork/process/squares

The square came out of my experience with the policeman but I quickly saw that it could be expanded to include the situation in South Africa and indeed the whole world. Institutionalised Power is very broad and it came to mind that it included:  government, corporations, the justice system, law enforcement, the church, patriarchy, the education system, the medical system and parents.

My/The Desire to be a Victim of Institutionalised Power.

To have no responsibility. To be an innocent victim. As an excuse for not : applying myself, trying to change things, being creative, finding my inspiration, speaking the truth, keeping my heart open,  voting. To ignore the power structure(there is nothing I can do so I refuse to think about it, my escapism. To demand that it compensates me. To justify my own tyranny and to justify keeping my heart shut down. To have something to complain about and in so doing project out tyranny. To not have to face that I feel powerless and inadequate in the face of it. To avoid taking a risk that could end up with me feeling hopeless, disappointed and heartbroken.  To get a lot of modern convenience. To outsource my conscious...(I am just buying the product, I am not responsible for how it is made etc, that is the governments problem.) To be underneath the radar.  Because I am confused between institutionalised power and divine power. To have someone else to blame. To instruct the nameless ‘they' to do things (they should)- to project out power.

Fear of Being a Victim of Institutionalised Power

I can be arrested, locked up, tortured. I can be killed, in a war, police cells , places of torture, prison, by my family(in an honour killing). I can be held without a fair trial. Are there even any fair trials? I could be kidnapped and trafficked. I could become an indentured labourer. I could be economically enslaved. I could be in an unfair and unjust marriage. I have no recourse to justice. I can't afford legal or medical expenses. I could be fined. I could be: repossessed, sucked into eternal debt. I will be subject to unfulfilling work. If I do fulfilling work I may not get much money. I will not be allowed to speak out. I will be ridiculed, humiliated and outcast if I speak out. My opinions, ideas and visions will not count. The world will suffer because only the concerns of the powerful will be considered. It is not possible or not easy to exercise my right to be heard in an equal forum. The ordinary individual does not get support. Institutions lack integrity. It David against Goliath. Slavery. I won't get a home because I have no land or resources. My ffod security and the healthfulness of my food is out of my hands. The health of my environment is out of my hands. I'll have to compromise myself to stay alive. I'll have to be acceptable and so I will have to compromise. I'll have to live in a defensive way. I may have to resort to crime to survive. I'll be drugged. I'll be labelled as insane.  If I go through a kundalini experience it will experience days of living hell of all levels of my being. Institutionalised power currently facilitates unfairness, lacks compassion.

My/The desire to rebel against institutionalised power

Because it isn't fair. Injustice. To have a hope of not being overrun. To avoid hopelessness. It feels so much better than colluding with it (active energy, masculine) or submitting to it(receptive energy, feminine). To leave a better world. To avoid having to be creative (if I am just against, I won't create anything). Because I have been betrayed therefore rebellion feels like justice. Institionalised power has made promises to me that are not being delivered. I've been conned. I've been bullied and dominated. Because I am not seen or heard. My freedom is curtailed. There is no equality.  

My/The fear of rebelling against institutionalised power

I'll be: victimised, killed, ostracised, humiliated, hurt, sequestrated, locked up, arrested, put on trial, punished, I'll be unhappy, I'll make trouble for myself and those around me. I'll be blacklisted and earmarked as a problem. I might be wrong.  I will feel powerless. It is so much hard work. Feeling sapped of energy. Feeling angry all the time. Feeling hopeless. Being martyred. Too many sacrifices. Gathering followers who make me too visible to the ‘authorities'.  Being labelled a terrorist. Putting my family in danger. Once I start taking it on, I am committed, I cannot go back to ignorance. It's a hornet's nest. I'll never have a peaceful, happy life. I'll end up hurting someone or killing someone. I'll be seen as a harbinger of bad news and a negative trouble maker who no one wants to hang out with. I'll become a scapegoat for the victims and the tyrants.

Later I saw another piece and actually ended up doing two squares, the sides of which seem interchangeable to me.

My/The desire to submit to institutionalised power

Because currently I am in the group of have's. Because I am blissfully ignorant about what is going on. I believe the double speak and propaganda that I hear. I have been lead to believe that the authorities are the goodies. I feel that I have recourse to justice in my own life. Because I blame the have not's for their situation, they are not capable, are incompetent, have no ambition, are not from my race group, are not of my gender. I cannot place myself in others shoes. I refuse to feel the pain of it all and disturb my own mental and emotional wellbeing. I am commited to one or many large institutions. I believe in profit uber alles, greed is good, altruism is evil. I am a shareholder and I couldn't care less about how the money comes as long as it does. It is not my problem. I will take care of myself and other people are responsible for themselves (rugged individualism). I am not able to see the matrix of lies. I am locked into my familiar world and cannot see how the paradigm I hold locks the whole system into place. I am not aware of the onness. I am not aware of the interconnectedness. I have shut down my intuition in order to feel ok and now it is too difficult to get it working again. I believe I am a sinner and so must suffer (original sin programme). I am so accustomed to feeling worthless that to be made worthless by the system seems absolutely normal. They pay my salary. I have a contract with them. I am lead to believe by the law and society that a contract between two entities is valid meanwhile there is very often the great inequality of an institutionalised power against one small individual, a situation which is reflected all through the deal and relationship. One person can do nothing. Institional powers have guns and ultimately the right to kill me or imprison me. The situation is hopeless, so I'll just bury my head in the sand until I die. I want to avoid my downward spiral emotions. Institutionalised power has the full might of the law behind it. I'll be rewarded, recognised, well paid, achieve status. Ill constantly be given the message that what I am doing is the right thing. I believe in acceptance and so think I should just surrender to the system (Confusing God with human systems). I believe there will always be inequality and that most people will suffer the most horrendous circumstance. That is the way that it is. There is nothing you can do about it. I have been taught that inequality is the Truth (men superior to women, children seen and not heard, whites are smarter than blacks). My heart is shut down.

My/The fear of submitting to institutionalised power

Everytime I submit the institutions gain more power. I'll lose my soul. I'll become dull and lifeless. I'll end up bitter and twisted and feel my life has been a waste. I will have to dumb down. Everything I say or do will be censored. I will lose or have already lost my freedom. While I am not watching tyranny will take over.  The current paradigm is crippling people financially and emotionally. I'll be victimised. I will be responsible for the way institionalised power victimises other people. Their karma becomes my karma.

 Ascended state: To be in a flow with power. To trust my own authority. To go 'God Direct'.

Descended state: To use institutional power as an instrument of my tyranny.

Desire: To be top dog. To have the full might of the law behind me. To conquer other lands and people. To be in control. To start wars. To supply weapons. To get my own way. To have a blast playing this game, which is such fun because I have the most power to weild. A crazy power rush. To keep my subjects, women, children in line. To make the most money. To get super rich. To be one of the 'elite'.

Fear: Bad Karma. My conscience will catch up. I have to carry on running. Knowing that I am causing pain. Having to indulge in sex, drugs and alcohol in order to escape the reality of who I am. My material possessions don't mean that much to me. Now that I have started with this I can't stop. There is no forgiveness offered in the world. I will be judged and hated. Others will call for my blood. I can never come clean.

I offer up these squares and all the polarities and double binds contained in them and ask to be brought into an integrated state, unifying all these polarities and resolving all these double binds. I ask also that this clearing spreads out into the collective. I ask with gratitude knowing this will be so. 

Some time ago we created a Morphogenic Field for South Africa. Please take a look at it here:

http://www.2ndmiracle.co.za/web/home/morphogenic

 And add in your energy, if you are in alignment.